Cranial Nerves

the cool thing about science is that unlike rules of grammar or the laws of numbers,it existed before we did. The way chemicals interact has been the same for eons, they are concrete and unchanging. They explain why things happen the way they do they was elements interact. Those elements interact in us we are just organisms made of atoms controled by electrical impulses that trigger hormones which are simply the interaction of chemicals comprised of elements. We walk and talk and think and feel because a bunch of elements. Some people believe only in science thinking that they cannot have faith in any god. I see things another way, I see a miracle in people all we are is a pile of matter and yet our bodies heal themselves and evolve and best of all those piles of matter have the power to choose. So, as I question the religion I've been taught and grapple with what to believe I do have faith in the miracle of well... us, humans.

a relic of freshman year that stuck with me

"Dear God," she prayed, "let me be something every minute of every hour of my life. Let me be gay; let me be sad. Let me be cold; let me be warm. Let me be hungry...have too much to eat. Let me be ragged or well dressed. Let me be sincere-- be deceitful. Let me be truthful; let me be a liar. Let me be honorable and let me sin. Only let me be something every blessed minute. And when I sleep, let me dream all the time so that not one little piece of living is ever lost." - A Tree Grows in Brooklyn

this time last year I dreamed of running away
this time this year I have just returned from running away

yet somehow I feel like I am back in the same place
I have learned so much, experienced so many new things

grown up

endured

and yet so much is the same

it didn't fade with the dawn

four teenagers sitting in the basement.
lives just beginning,they could do anything they want.
so many firsts they've had and so many yet to experience.

they discuss the future, their paths beginning to materialize,
yet so much is still uncertain.
as the conversation continues eyes meet.
Begin a conversation of their own,
the kind only two people in love can share.

the other two realize that they are now alone in the conversation,
they happily exchange a knowing look, one giggles,
as they remember what its like to be newly in love.
the four sit together in a room,
the air tangibly full of young love and possibility.

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four adults share a dingy flat in eastern europe,
years have passed,the same four find themselves in another basement.
this basement is more chaotic,
with an odd smell coming from the ugly green carpet.

they begin another part of their lives,
very different from the last one.
one couple still has a few adventures left in them,
the other has settled down,they are expecting a child.

the group recounts their days as they prepare dinner.
someone meantions a certain movie,
two best friends share a look and laugh,
two boys shake their heads
at two girls they have no hope of understanding.
they are embraced by the atmosphiere of hope and years of love and friendship.

if I close my eyes

I can still taste you on my lips
feel your touch on my skin

I miss you

now I'll wait for time to pass
wait until I've forgotten you

just a little

dame un besito

last year someone else
was the first one to wish me Merry Christmas

things have ended with that person

and I could be begining with someone new
I hope...

voy a ver

I found myself here,
will that girl dissapear?

do I still have a spot,
or has the place I once lived healed over?

we've both changed,
will we still be friends like we were?

voy a extraner mi vida aca
voy a ver