The Magic

* This is my journal entry from yesterday*
Its Christmas eve the day when I used to be so excited about Christmas I couldn't sleep or stop moving. But something happened this year for the first year ever it doesn't seem like Christmas it seems just like a normal day. Not even a good normal day my Mom was flipping out because people were coming over. Then we all went to mass, normally I like mass not because I find it meaningful but because its peaceful and I like the predictability of the whole thing and it gives me a chance to think. Today there was no peace there was no joy for Christmas the whole thing was wholly devoid of magic.

wish me luck finding some magic!